I hear you, I feel you, and sometimes I even see you. I see you every time I back out of something that I was originally excited for. I see you when someone backs out of plans with me. You are all around me, everywhere I look.
You make me question myself and my capabilities. You make me feel worthless, and sometimes you even make me hate myself. You are cruel and persistent. No matter how far or how long I run, you always seem to find me.
But I want you to know something. I am strong, and I am unbreakable. Sometimes I am weak, and I believe every little mean thing you say about me. But you can’t beat me down. Deep down I know that even though I’m not perfect, I am beautiful, I am smart, I am kind, and I am worth it.
I refuse to let you ruin and control my life. I want you to leave and never come back. I don’t want to see you every morning when I look in a mirror, and I don’t want to see you in the reflection of others views of me. You are no longer welcomed in my life.
From now on I choose to be free. I choose to be free of you, and I choose to be free to be unabashedly me.
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